this is life..

im kind of bz lately..
with dozens of assignment to catch up the deadline..exams..
huh..exhausted..
i feel like wanna go to holiday...even just come back from holiday..haha
or maybe im just get this enough.
but life wouldnt be that easy..
u just cant hope to live easy life..
having  leisure time all the times..
can i?huhu
sometimes i feel life is too hard to get through
i wanna good life..without need to struggle soo much..
but then if i want to have that, i have to work hard now..
study hard to get a better life right..
hurmm..
owh yeah..today-5/4/12..its been 1 year and 7 months between me and amirul...
i just dont want to remember the past..
want to forget Qai..just dont know how...
just live my life ..
hoping to have this current relationship goes well..
and my study ..
ughhhh hard to say..
sometimes have no mood ..coz soo many things to do..
being a student is hard enough..what more when work later..

far away

people never know...
and me too never want to share..
then where else should i go..
the burden in my heart seems never go away..
where else to go when home itself no longer a peace place..
the smile is not real..
the tears never want to stop..
i just can be me..
a person who tell lies in action..
i might run away..
doesnt want to face this anymore..
but where?
no one knows..
no one understand..
to let it be is not the solution..
yes im hiding myself...
i just wanna live my life..
then why should i have to face all this?
ive been test by Allah hardly this time..
Subhanallah..
i know...He never test test me if im unable to face and settle it..
i can..but deep in my heart.. im suffers...

fine!!

in my life i only hate 2 person the most..
and thanks for what u did just now..
there gone my assignment...and now i have to do it back..
s!!!!
in front of abah u can treat me bad..what else behind him..
fine !! what u did u will get back..
that's why your life is like that..study but got expelled!! works but never permanent..
haha..you deserve that..
I HATE U FOREVER!!!

Allah knows

iVE DECIDED...

for whatever happen, I just can let it be..

May Allah show me the way..the best way..

coz only He knows..

and i believe.. for whatever happen..there's hikmah..

bad things happen for a me to think positive...

to ignore is not a human nature(fitrah)

but to let it be with own efforts, I think that's the best..

there's so much things to do in this world..

happiness is for us to find..

the pain..

it's not that i dont realize..not that i dont regret..
but i still remember...
the pain is stil here..
it's not that i dont love him whom i have now..
i just cant forget Qai..
time still cant cure the pain..
cant erase the memories...
cant bring me courage to forget..
and sometimes i still become stalker..
look at his fb..the only way i can do..coz i dont want to contact him anymore..his number also gone..
there's still tears..when suddenly the memories came..
and the pictures..i still keep it..
i know i can forget him if i just erase it..but i just cant..
how stupid i am..

the worst thing ever..is to know u.to fall in love with u..and have a broken heart because of you..